I buried my head on my stake pillows when I got home, hitting them with my hands from my anger as the tears came.
I’ve been fired, what am I going to do now?
I somehow managed to gather myself and my emotions. It was still early.
“There’s still time to go to the library and then the park.” I said to my self as I got off the bed.
I changed into something skimpier, still concealing my entire figure underneath. I was insecure about my body and ashamed of the scars it possessed.
I started on my heel and headed to the library then the park. I was sitting on the bench reading? Counting Raindrops Through A stained Glass Window? When an old lady with platinum blonde hair sat down beside me.
“Hello dear.” She greeted, kindly.
For an old woman by herself in the park, she wore very expensive jewelry. I could tell just by looking at it.
“Hello ma’am.” I greeted back with a small smile. I continued with my book as she opened a newspaper. Twenty minutes into reading, two men in black tuxedos approached our bench. They resembled characters in? Men In Black-not a smile on their faces as they took long strides toward us.
I panicked. I was easily frightened.
The elder woman stood up and extended her arms to them. They held onto her, supporting her to help her stand on her own two feet. They left without another word. Suddenly, I noticed she had forgotten her newspaper. I took it and ran in their direction.
“Excuse me, ma’am!” I called, getting a little closer, but was cutoff by one of the bodyguards.
“Can I help you miss?” He asked firmly, with a tone that made me regret running after them.
“I’m sorry, the…..lady forgot…..her newspaper.” I was out of breath. Damn, I needed to exercise more.
“Why don’t you keep it and educate yourself? Maybe then you’ll find out who ‘the lady’ is, so you can address her by her name next time.”
His response was rude but encouraging. I walked back to the bench and watched as the black SUV drove away with her inside. I looked at the page she was reading to the left side of the article it stated: “at Hollen Tower. Terms and conditions apply.”
And, of course, terms and conditions meant about the job’s responsibilities punctual, fluent in English, impeccable character, precious work experience, related employment history, and more. I had applied for so many jobs like this before but gotten turned down once they looked at me-like I wasn’t human. I wasn’t like them.
I wasn’t like them, actually. I didn’t own a house or a car or have expensive clothes and shoes, or have the ability to wine and dine at restaurants, but I was a human being too!
I was a plain and simple one. I lived in a cheap apartment, wore beat-up clothes that were stained and crumpled; I ate scraps left in the kitchen at Carl’s Cafe after breakfast, lunch and dinner were served. After my rent was paid I usually had money for my essential needs, like feminine products and canned foods that didn’t spoil in a hurry-since I didn’t own a refrigerator.
I was at rock bottom, but I’d accepted it and learned hot to be satisfied with the little I had and could afford. I found comfort in reading books. I loved reading about the poor girls who found princes and billionares who swept them off their feet, got married and lived happily ever after like Cinderella?
I kept on wish something like that would happen to me, but they were only books; they were fiction. In this modern world princes and billionares didn’t go for poor girls like me. They dated model and designers, and women with the looks, body, and beauty who could fit into their lifestyle. Who would want someone like me?
I got on my feet and left the park before it got too dark out. I was afraid of walking the streets at night.
I arrived at my apartment three hours later. I sat on a hard, uncomfortable chair as I read through the newspaper’s articles one more time. Something at the back of my mind told me that I should give it one more shot, but something else just wanted me to give up.
“Look at your life, Emma, you got fired today. You’re jobless, the rent would be due at the end of the month or else out on the street you go. You don’t have anyone who could take you in and care about you. You have to try to get another job.” Said one side.
“Emma, just give up. You’re not going to get a job at Hollen Tower. It’s too grand for your taste. They’ll do what they always do, take one look at you and turn their faces. Just give up, you’ll be evicted, so what? You wouldn’t be the first to get evicted and live on the streets. Why not join a gang?” Said the other.
I was frustrated. I looked at my life and cried myself to sleep.
I knew when the clock struck seven the next morning I would be out of this shack? And on my way to Hollen Tower. I needed to try just one more time.
This time I will make bigger efforts in my appearance to land the job. I will get the job, just watch.